Depression and ECT 5

I've suffered from depression since I was a pre-teen. In 2012 I got very sick, becoming suicidal. In 2013 I decided to try ElectroConvulsive Therapy. The "Depression" series of blog posts chronicles that process.

To start the Depression series at the beginning, click here: http://ittybittycrazy.squarespace.com/imported-data/2013/12/29/depression-1.html
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I am finally starting to feel better. It's hard to describe what "better" means without falling back on cliche's like "I feel more myself" or "It's like a burden has been lifted."

I feel lighter, brighter.

There was nothing exceptional about my day, but I feel like I was at a normal default setting rather than feeling sad or down. My rating scale goes from -10 (suicidal) to +10 (Disneyland) and today, on average, I was at a good "zero."

I caught myself laughing and making jokes.

Kathy said she thought I was like i used to be two years ago.

Progress!!!!

To start the Depression series at the beginning, click here: http://ittybittycrazy.squarespace.com/imported-data/2013/12/29/depression-1.html

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