I've suffered from depression since I was a pre-teen. In 2012 I got very sick, becoming suicidal. In 2013 I decided to try ElectroConvulsive Therapy. The "Depression" series of blog posts chronicles that process.

To start the Depression series at the beginning, click here: http://ittybittycrazy.squarespace.com/imported-data/2013/12/29/depression-1.html
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ECT today. The intake nurse, who has some condition that gives her the shakes, shoved the IV in me like a ninja killing someone with a knitting needle through the eyeball. From now on I am going to request the IV team. The guy I met in the waiting room a few days ago told me to do that. Now I know why.

Treatment went fine.

After they put the electrodes on me, and the blood pressure cuff on my right calf, they put a little mouth plug on my chest to use later. I really would have rather not seen that.

After the hospital we went to Kathy's house for tea and I experienced short term memory loss side effect for the first time. She was talking and I had something I wanted to say but, by the time the break in the conversation came where I could say my piece, I'd forgotten what it was. Now that happens to normal people in normal conversation but you can usually remember what you were going to say with a little prompting. Not me. When I say the thought was gone, I mean it was GONE.

I came home and slept for three hours in the afternoon. I think my mood was slightly lighter today, but I was still dreading Fluffy Bear going away this weekend.

To start the Depression series at the beginning, click here: http://ittybittycrazy.squarespace.com/imported-data/2013/12/29/depression-1.html

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